Late Post

Hehe.. sorry for the late late late update... too many things going on...Ahh... the power run!! it was... nice...i think.. well..i'm not fit that's for sure.. coz i finished 7km in 1hr 20min..haih... so lousy... but i'm glad i finished it anyway... halfway through i was thinking "how did i get myself into this shit? what am i doing? who am i kidding? i'm not gonna finish" but after i finished i felt happy.. relief.... its over!! but nobody in my family seems to be encouraging.. in fact they sound like they're putting me down.. they're saying stuff like..7km ain't a big deal... bla bla bla... i'm kinda disappointed in their response..i thought they would be more encouraging.. but i don't care anymore... it was fun hanging out with my friends... we wanted to use the pics for our moral folio... hehe... i don't think i should put it here...coz... i don't have their permission..but i'm gonna upload in friendster soon...

Well...other than that I've been absolutely messed up and confused lately.. all the work piling up... all the unnecessary things that happen in school... and all the things that people push to me to do... when in truth i have nothing to do with it... grr... just getting so pissed off lately... must be hormones...raging hormones..haha... and i can't believe i'm still here...typing... haih... i'm such a failure... i pray that after this week everything goes back to normal... i'm so pissed that i even get pissed off by one of my besties... haih... i guess all the pressure and pain they caused me all this while just bottled up and now it is starting to burst... it's been 3 years since i felt this kind of anger towards my friends... haih... i think i should end the post here... else i'll continue to crap and i won't finish my essay... haha... sorry my dear readers that you have to see this side of me which i cannot really explain and sorry that this update is such a disappointment...

-llen-