long day... phew..

Finally... AS exams are OVER...

It's been a long day mainly because i couldn't sleep yesterday.. could've been the green tea from dinner time... i just couldn't sleep... -.- .. and the house alarm even went off at 3 something just when i tried to sleep...haih...

So after the paper most of the class went to sunway to celebrate..by watching 2012... overall i think it was a nice movie. just a little too much of the effects... that it became so....overwhelming.. but i do wonder if they tried to incorporate the story about Noah' ark into the movie..hm..

After the movie the whole bunch of them wanted to go to Manhattan fish market and ... i didn't feel hungry enough to stomach that... so i passed.. followed Wun Yeun to the camera store... then followed Xing Leng to the optical store... walk walk walk.. and ahh.. about time for me to go back..

But i didn't go home..haha..i was deciding between going home to sleep or go to mum's office and wait and when she finishes work we could walk around before going home.. so... since i'm celebrating my freedom i decided to go all out XD ...

By the time i got to midvalley i was hungry so i had a late and lonely lunch...got some juice and went to mum's office..tried to do theory homework but i fell asleep... hehe... but after waiting for mum to finish up she did take me for a little look-seeing so i was happy... :) ..

We went back..picked bro up and went out for dinner at modesto's...and i know how to become a member already ...ngiak ngiak ngiak...

.. i think the highlight of my day was when we came back... our porchlight is usually off so when i got down from the car.. i saw a sort of figure lying on the floor between bro and dad's car... it was too dark to tell wat it was so i told mum to switch on light.. and as i went to get my shoes in there was a super super cute fat fat cat!!! i was so happy.... i thought i'd have a pet at last.... it ran off but after we switched on the light we saw it hiding under the car..but its tail was sticking out XD ... but mum didn't want it to be there so.. it had to be chased away -.- ... but now we know wat triggered the alarm last night..hehe... there were other cats who trespassed before :) ..


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Tomorrow...tomorrow... you're only a day away~~~

aiya... no mood to study... -.- .. it's weird frustrating knowing you need to ace the exam and yet everytime you try to study you fall asleep or your mind wanders off somewhere else -.- ...

so once again... i have to burn midnight oil ... then tomorrow enjoy~~~ and monday.. suffer....

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Just one more.....

nyehehehehe.... One last paper on Friday... Chemistry paper 1...

I really hope it will be the end of AS stuff but... i think i'll have to retake some..or a lot of papers next year.. yissh... i'll decide in January -.- ...

Physics wasn't all that bad actually... i wonder why i never liked it before...i just hope i answered correctly -.- ... Right after the exam when we came out it was already raining heavily...the weather now is like "winter".. since we don't have four seasons..it has been raining almost everyday now but it's a good thing i actually like the rain :) ...but it was so heavy today that luckily there's a shade at the front gate where the ATM machine is at... it's actually a nice place to see things.. just to observe human nature... :) ... i even saw my classmates squealing while trying to cross the road under an umbrella... so cute :3 .. like those commercials about friendship XD ...

But more importantly..holidays are coming~~ And i've just set a challenge with my cousin... hoho... we have to lose 5kg by Christmas... that's...about one month from now...? hopefully i'll stay away from all the yummy stuff tempting me... or i could cheat by baking some cookies and cakes and stuff and shoving it into my cousin's stomach...muahahahaha...

other than that... holidays will be a time of catching up with old friends :D ... Haln and El will be back. but not for very long :( ... Yong Jie will be back for an even shorter period of time -.- ... Shien Chen will be flying off i dunno when ... Qiqi won't be back till next year... and i'm pretty sure other people might be flying off next year... heh.. guess that's life... just a matter of getting used to it and keeping in touch... :)

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absolutely unmotivated...

2 more papers to go!!! can't believe the exams will be over so soon.... then it's back to A2 stuff...

Physics paper 2 tomorrow and i'm thinking of everything but physics... -.- ...

wonder when i became so unmotivated when it comes to studying.. :/ ...


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Everytime i think i've made up my mind about something... something else comes up and makes me think twice.. -.- ..

Like how in form 5.. i was so psyched to go for the trinity foundation (and dad was the one who made me so excited..hmm.. maybe i should listen to dad less XD) ...until i found out if i did that i wouldn't be able to practicse law in Malaysia... so fine.. i chose A levels instead...

Now it's about time to think about what to do and i've sent in my application for law.. but as a backup plan Aussie is still an option.. so i went with mum to JM education counselling centre to talk to the Melbourne Uni representative.. Dad has been telling me that his friend's daughter did some business degree in Aussie then went to UK to do law degree and all this in just 5 years... and somehow.. i dunno.. it seemed like a very good idea.. at least dad made it look fun.. about how a businees degree would compliment the law degree well.. blablabla.. such a convincing speech that i was looking towards the future with hope and ambition in my eyes~~~ haha..

*ahem*

Anyways... i thought getting a law degree from melbourne would allow me to practise in Malaysia.. but then.. the lady said so far ..there's no such thing.. and before she told me that.. she asked me. " Why do you want to do law?"

And i honestly froze for a while... i didn't know how to answer her.. i can't say..."coz my parents ask me to".. so... i paused and said out of interest.. which is partially true i guess... and then she asked me again..."which area of law specifically" ...-.- .. i told her contracts.. which again is partially true.. but after that she did lay down some of my options and i guess i have some stuff to think about...

I guess i don't know that much about law really.. and i hate to second guess myself.. law is definitely not my first choice... but after some a lot of brainwashing (i think it started when i was quite young..hmm..).. it turned out to be the most "logical" choice.. it's quite flexi when it comes to jobs in the future... it's useful? .. what else? .. challenging i suppose..? and there doesn't seem to be anything else i can do so.. why not...?

this brings back memories of when YongJie ask me why i wanna do law.. and he said.. "if you're gonna say you wanna uphold justice then why don't you be a policeman.." ermm... it made sense for a while.. but i think they're 2 different things XD ... but ever since then i don't use the "justice" reason anymore...

i think it may be stupid to think like this but.. if i do get rejected by the 5 unis in UK... then..it wasn't meant to be? i should do something else...? god is trying to point me in a different direction? i'm not capable of doing law...?

ahh.. whatever it is ... i'll just go with the flow -.- ... whatever will be, will be~~

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Sometimes you get those chain mails that say you've got no excuse not to keep in touch with your friend... that a phone call really isn't that difficult to make.. etc etc... i usually believe in that part.. it's a good message..but i hate it when they include that "if you don't forward ... will happen to you" crap... hmm.. more on chain mail in the future.. today's story is different...

But as much as i like to believe in that email... as much as i try to keep in touch.. even when it's not a phone call..( coz... i very very rarely call people.. it's a weird habit i developed i guess.. ask me why and i'll tell you some other day... XD ... ) who says it's easy to keep in touch...?

We change all the time.. maybe we don't realise and even when we don't change... who's to say that person who was your best friend from 4 years ago wouldn't change...? sometimes it's sad that you can't do much to help someone when they seem in need of it but sometimes it just feels like.. they don't seem to be trying to make it easier for you to help them... then what are you supposed to do...??

Not everyone can pick up where they left off... some people can go one year being away and still be able to chat like nothing's ever changed.. it's great when that happens..
but when you can't pick up from where you left off it just gets a little sad.. or annoying.. it's like you've become so distant and it's a whole new puzzle to crack before they let you into their lives again..

So... is this all part of the package of growing up... or did we do something wrong along the way...? I'm not exactly troubled by this but it's just kinda disappointing that things would turn out this way... :(


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Don't you just hate it when you try to tweak your biological clock back to normal and it doesn't work...? I tried to sleep at 1am... and after rolling round and round in the blanket i'm still awake right now... at 4am.. arrgghhh...

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too much of a good thing...

Since mum's away at China dad has become (in his own words) the house-husband... which really is not that true... 2 years ago he still attempted to be the househusband by actually cooking us our dinner.. now he just takes us out to eat... -.- ...

Yesterday we had dinner at Centro and it was quite nice... tonight he brought us to Opus.. a place at Bangsar.. supposedly fine dining..but honestly it didn't feel like fine dining.. heh.. when dad said Opus i thought..wahhh.... like symphony... should be a place with bright lighting..probably 2 stories high..lotsa space... but when we arrived.. i noticed it's not called Opus.. it's Opus bistro.. bro even said it had a studio apartment feel.. the pictures i found online were also equally deceiving maybe because they were taken with those wide-angle lens.. Deception #1 ... (but i did notice the staff were more professional than average.. so + points for that.. )

When dad told us he was taking us out to makan there he said it'll be with some of his staff.. he mentioned the name of an aunty i know.. and made it sound like it'll be only a few of them... turns out there would be around 15+ people... -.- ... Deception #2 ...

The experience was overall quite nice... i'd say the food for most parts was average... i really liked one of the starters and the dessert though.. the dessert i had was Chocolate Desire.. and it's a molten chocolate cake with a scoop of ice cream... i didn't know it was molten when i ordered.. and it is quite a big serving... all the chocolate oooooozed out .. but after everything.. i was so extremely full... i felt like i couldn't walk properly...

and now... my eyes feel like shutting but my tummy is so full i don't think i can lie down and sleep comfortably.. -.- .. which results in me skipping tomorrow's physics extra class..haih..gues i'll just study at home...
hmm.. i get the feeling that whenever dad or bro is supposed to take care of my food i'll get fat very easily.. dad orders a lot of food.. and bro usually takes me out for fast food..

ohh..and i've been considering blogging totally about food for some time now... maybe if i take my camera out with me all the time.. :) ..should I...? my life just seems too boring to blog about but at the same time i don't feel like killing off this blog... -.- ...

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