stuck in 2008...

Went out with some friends today and had a nice time :)
...they were talking about their plans and when they'll see each other again for the two that are flying off at different times..and then i kinda got mixed up with the year...thinking that it's still gonna be 2008 next year... XD ... darn... being a bum has its side effects...
Lotsa stuff's been happening... (maybe not lots..but quite a bit?) hehe... some good... some not so pleasant... but as the year's coming to an end.. i keep thinking back on this year... and also the whole 11 years of schooling... all the people leaving just makes you think about when you first met them... how's it been since then... how you're gonna miss them so much when they leave... hoping you'll keep in touch and still be able to talk to them in the future....*sigh* ... we have a long way to go....

-llen-

Yesterday evening went I went to the gathering organised by shiyee and lincze (thanks for organising!) Well... lots of people couldn't go ..or rather..lots of people I know couldn't go... We mostly sat in our corner..haha... coz i guess it's easier to talk like that... the only people who we haven't saw or talked to in ages is Kaiyisah... i think... anyways....Lincze told us to join in at their table...so we did..
And then.. I was sitting next to HengJin.. then suddenly a dude in a pink shirt came in... and put his hand on my right shoulder and the other hand on HengJin's left shoulder... which really does make you "teo chi kia" (translated i think it means... scared till green ahh?) coz I was wondering who this dude was...? do i know the dude..? then i looked at Vianni with a Save My Soul look.... 0.0 .... when I went home and chatted with vianni..she even thought I knew the dude..haha....

-llen-

Christmas dinner is over... this year we had more food than usual.. I think....
Well.. can't say I absolutely enjoyed it thoroughly as I usually do... coz there's people not feeling well... some last minute stuff to be done... and doing stuff you don't want to ..but hey.. it's times like these where we must give and take a little... no matter how much you want things to go differently... we're still family... I still had a good time with my lil' niece.. hehe... and a chance to bond with cousins... so it's ok i guess.. Just hope people who need healing get better in time... I dun wanna be in a family where it's "difficult" .. in the sense that... when we see each other I don't want any bitter feelings... hearing stories of some families where the brothers and sisters fight and stuff... i always think that i'm lucky... in a peaceful family... but... i just hope it stays that way.... haih... too bad it's past Christmas... else I could make a wish... Hope everyone else had a good christmas... :)

Edit: Now that I think it over... well... we should adapt and make the best of things shouldn't we? we shouldn't say from the start that it's gonna be bad i guess..Humans should be good enough to adapt and stuff... and think... but it's over anyway so.. phew...

-llen-

Nightmare before Christmas...

I slept till quite late today.. around 11 something.. but I remember waking up before that and going back to sleep coz I had a nightmare... kind of a nightmare...
I dreamt we went to collect our SPM results... and...and... I got really really lousy results.. I hope that dream nightmare doesn't come true...
It's christmas afternoon now.. Gonna go over to aunt's place to help with the shepherd's pie... ahh... tradition..

-llen-

Christmas Eve...

It's christmas eve!! This year's was a bit special...
19 years ago my paternal grandma passed away on Christmas Eve... So since we (or rather my aunts) pray on the death anniversaries we have a kind of feast... loads of food... Coz we look at the death anniversaries according to the lunar calendar so.. so far it hasn't been on christmas eve..until today... so we went over to aunt's house for dinner.. my other cousins came too :) ... We had fun with Rachel as usual... and tomorrow we'll see each other again! hehe... that's why I like Christmas..it's all about getting together... food... fun... family...

However... I didn't get a lot of sleep yesterday... slept around 4am (or was it 5.....) coz dad's friends were around and my hair was still wet... I did try sleeping early but... doesn't work...haih... So in the morning Mum woke me up and asked if i still wanted to go to the office with her... I somehow managed to summon the strength to jump out of bed and get a shower..haha... coz she was saying "aiya..u better rest lah... u oso din sleep much..." but i didn't wanna be stuck at home so i showered and we went out... I slept at her office while reading that orange undang book (used my bro's since i havent went to the ceramah... thought i'd get an early start on the book... ) And it was lunch time!!!! So we had a nice lunch and went shopping :) ... for presents... we always do last minute shopping... not a good thing but it sure is exhilarating...haha... anyways... we didnt manage to get everyone's...so maybe tomorrow will be another round of shopping.... But i'm looking forward to the food tomorrow... hehe... i'm such a pig -.-

-llen-

Back after a long day out...took KTM and monorail today :) ... now i know how..hehe... didnt think it'd be so uncomplicated... but it's horrible when all those office people finish work and you're waiting on the same train... and the way they don't wait for people to come out before getting in... annoying and selfish and uncivilised....
Anyways...i had a good time...though tiring...it was fun... and i'm loving my niece more and more..hahaha... coz she's talking a lot more... and she can sing (though... erm... she doesn't pronounce the words really well... ) and she says the nicest things...sometimes... but i can see why she's a joy to come home to... i was really tired and i went to my aunt's place after the outing before going home and she's so cheerful!! she just runs to you with her big big wide smile..... aww... (note to self...get more pics of her... ) of course i'm aware that she probably doesn't do that all the time... or maybe she does..but she's still my favourite lil' niece!!
Well... i'm back home now... but there's a whole bunch of people downstairs... the music is playing... kids screaming... and tomorrow is probably gonna be a full day too!! christmas eve... gonna go shopping!!

-llen-

hehe.. been more than a week since my holiday in italy+switzerland... too lazy to update :P ...
Overall it was a nice trip... I thought Italy would be a nice place to stay at first but after some thought Switzerland is probably better... Italy is still ..kinda developing... but if you like cities with a good blend of old and new then it's fine i guess... While we were there we saw a demonstration.. i only got one picture but not too clear either coz mum and bro thought i might get beaten up for taking their pics.... poo... and we couldn't go shopping in Milan as scheduled because of a strike as well so... i guess you get the picture about their government... haha... But Switzerland was nice.. a peaceful environment... its kinda like being in a place that you feel you wanna go back again... Not to say I didn't feel that way about Italy but Italy is more of the go back to sight see and go round the whole country whereas Switzerland is somewhere you might consider staying ...kinda like the feeling with Australia...
The nice thing was we got to try all the food that was on our list of things to try... (Pizza..Tiramisu..Pasta..Lasagne..Coffee) Not all of it was good but most of it was yummy.... (hence my fatness...)

Since I've been back I haven't been doing much...it's either lazing around or hanging out with friends... My sleeping time and meal times have all gone out of whack... nothing to do with jet lag... (i seem to have adapted well this time...) And now that dad has holiday... he's gonna be at home most of the time... and he'll keep going on about "back in my time... i did so many things.. i learn how to make my own radio.... i... etc etc etc...you all? just...etc etc.." not that it's a bad thing to have someone try to motivate you but ... whenever you try to say "times have changed".. he tells u "the world is still spinning" .. i don't really get that but argh... he's right...i'm a bum..

So for now I've set some stuff I need to do.... Call the driving school dude... (He's called Ah Lun..haha... ah wheel.... pardon me being lame -.- ) ... Discipline myself to practise the piano...Hopefully find a job after getting driving license... or else i'll rot to death... hopefully i'll find a meaningful activity... maybe yoga...or go for some cooking class..that'd be fun...

-llen-

Since I won't start college in Jan..and i'm still not too sure about what i wanna do i am supposed to be thinking about the future.... *sigh* ....
I didnt really expect to change plans suddenly.. Coz I was kinda sure that i'd be going to aussie right after SPM..but then.. our beloved country has the restriction that if you do other places' foundation courses thingy you cant practise law in malaysia even after you get your degree and stuff... so... that was when i realised... i aint goin to trinity next year... And then some pondering made me think that maybe i dont wanna do law... maybe i wanna do something else... and all this pondering and thinking too much led to... I dunno wat to do now... really makes you wonder if its wrong to be blur...and not know wat u wanna do... or if its just normal... issh...
So i'll have a long and wonderful break :) ..and do some thinking and research ...
But the thing that is not so fun abt holidays is everytime parents want you to do something there's no more excuse... they'll always use the "holiday mah... u very free... help me.." tactic...

Ooh..and today i went out with my brother..haha.. our first sibling shopping session... but the thing is...guys aren't meant to shop huh... we walk the same distances and he gets tired... he doesn't seem to get really excited ... maybe i've been deprived of shopping so i feel more like shopping..hehe... and with christmas round the corner... all the shops have one thing in common... SALE SALE SALE!! .. and there's lots of people there even though its a weekday... really give you the mood to shop... haha... probably gonna get mum to take me... she's a better shopping companion... and she has the money!! :P


-llen-

Freedom...?

SPM is over :) .... but am i happy...??
Sure.. after accounts paper there was this urge to scream...haha... i just had a wide smile spread scross my face... while kahyee was relatively calm -.- .... We were gonna watch madagascar 2 with joeann & sis, yongjie, yimin, chinli and tsuqi... then since joeann's sis already watch madagascar 2 we thought of switching to twilight and so we did... luckily we did... hehe.. coz madagascar starts at 1.20... and tsuqi was stuck with a teacher for some time so we'd be late so it all worked out well since twilight starts at 3...
Had lunch...then..... yimin called... she had piano...and couldn't make it...THEN... kahyee called chinli and she said she didn't know abt the plan... so she didnt have transport.. then later she said it was coz she hadn't turned on the phone so she didn't see my msg after all ... so we had 2 extra tickets...haha... and after calling lots of ppl who didnt want to see the movie.. we had no choice but to sell it....and it works...haha... was kinda fun looking out for the ones who want to watch the movie...
The movie was not bad...but this is coming from someone who hasn't read the book... and i was looking forward to some scenes...that somebody said was really nice...haha... but we are in malaysia after all so it was cut off... I dont really get it... it was supposed to be just a kissing scene but maybe slightly more hot... so... other shows also kiss here kiss there...so... they actually judge how hot they think the scene is..... and cut it off...? aih.. so since they cut off the scene there was some dispute over what it really was about...
After the show it was time to buy a CD..haha.. dad heard jason mraz's "i'm yours" and really liked it so he told me to buy it for him... and they give u a free tshirt! After that it was time for qiqi to go...then joeann went home... and haih... started to feel like... aww... we aint gonna see each other so often no more...that's when the reality sinks in... that the holidays are probably gonna be boring and not as fun as i imagined...*sigh*... but ..nyehh... it always works out anyways...
Then another not so good news came just after i went back... pif.... so there's lots of stuff going through my head..kinda.. or maybe its the espresso doing the thinking... hmm...oh well at least the holidays will be good for sorting out stuff..and thinking about what's next in life...

-llen-