A little update...

sms-ed with Sally yesterday...she's the girl i usually sit next to in class.. anyways she wanted to let me know that she was leaving taylor's... coz her appeal for JPA was successful... she won't even be stepping foot into college for the last time coz she starts on saturday? or something about having to get in the hostel by then...

It's kinda weird how things turn out..if she was going to leave us say... some time in March i don't think i'll miss her much... but i just got to know more of her recently... and ... as much as i hate to say this.. but i'm gonna miss her... in a way... i say that "i hate to say this" because... hehe... well.. she ain't your average girl ...

Honestly.. i used to get annoyed sometimes when i wasn't in a good mood and when she made very lame and "cold" (in mandarin) remarks.. i used to think... how am i going to spend a year and a half with this girl...?? but then i got to know her more... she made me laugh sometimes... we had some things in common.. some things we could talk about...and after she told me some stuff about herself i wonder if all she's been through is what turned her into what she is today...? ...and so i eventually got used to her lame remarks... and things weren't too bad most of the time...

I don't think many people in the class even get her... coz she's sometimes too weird.. haha.... sorry lah.. but it's the truth... and i hope if she reads this (which i doubt she ever will) she knows that i mean it in a good way...

but in the end... i guess i'm happy for her... things turned out well for her in the end.. she was really putting a lot of hope on the scholarship and she got what she wanted and needed... she said she'd miss all of us... and i just wished her all the best and that i'd miss her too :)

made me think... how nice to be given a 2nd chance.. to do something you just realised you wanted... and i think for some people college really is that 2nd chance... i'm always gonna be proud of bro... coz when you look at his secondary school results.. (erm...let's just say he received hell from dad over it..maybe partly because he played lotsa games... i dunno).. and you look at how he's doing at college... and you'll see a world of difference.. i don't think his course is very easy... but.. i think it's at least related to something that he likes to do... and maybe it's his own drive to be good at what he has chosen (or was brainwashed to choose XD ) ... whatever it is... i sometimes wish i could be like him right now... (hehe.. he doesn't read my blog so i can write all this "i'm so proud of you bro" stuff XD... )



Ohh... and i just found out that mum did tell dad about my results... dad didn't scold me or anything o.O ... but... i think that's what he said himself... one day when he picked me up after class on the way back he DID say it didn't matter SO much to him... coz i warned him abt my results already since i already knew it was gonna be crappy after taking the exam... he said something along the lines of he was like that too when he was our age but what matters is how he worked hard after that and ultimately achieved his goals...

i asked mum what he said.. then she said... "he so sad until.... dunno what to say" ...

finally... they see i'm not what they think i am... i know this will never be enough to push them to let me do what i REALLY wanted... but... aih... at least they know lah... -.-


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