thinking about the past is sometimes a bad idea..

suddenly the thoughts about how you disappointed yourself, the people around you just come back.. and it sucks.

it's something i'll always have to live with because no matter what i do, i can never change that fact.

if i had a chance to do it all over again, would i do it differently?

you bet i will... anything to erase this feeling of regret..

something so small could have made such a big difference...

whether or not i would be happier on the whole, i don't know..

but right now, at this moment.. yea, i think i would've been much happier than how i'm feeling now..

-llen-