the weirdo i am..
my eyes welled up for the first time today (note that the tears didn't roll down my face :D ) .. what a failure -.- ..
all the thinking about which way to go started to bring thoughts into my mind.. all of a sudden i started thinking about family.. home.. how nice it'd be if i could have a face to face discussion with mum and dad about it all.. and then i went out to get my dinner at the cafeteria alone.. then i started missing the food back home... how nice it'd be to have a bowl of fish head meehoon.. or kuey teow soup.. ANYTHING warm and soupy and can be eaten with chopsticks.. and porridge too..and all our family gatherings with awesome food..and how nice it'd be for us to just get into bro's car and go out for lunch together..how much fun it was to hang out in bro's room watching movies or series together and watching him play cool coomputer games with cool storyline and sometimes dozing off on his bed and getting scolded by him when he's sleepy and cranky.. and i miss having friends.. only friend i got here now is Kai Ye and she's doing a different course.. most people in class have buddies already and i'll have to just campur into a group, fast.. i miss having credit in my phone which won't run out..i miss malaysian money..
let me sidetrack for a while.. why do the british have a 2 pound/pence coin when they already have a 1 pound/pence coin? how does that make life easier for anyone -.- ..
but i logged on to messenger and had really short chats with a few people and i managed to smile again :) .. thank you so much for making me feel so loved.. i dunno what i did to deserve all the love and support i get from the people around me and i promise to make it up to all of you one day :') ..
now, time to hit the books and leave the deep thinking for the weekends ._. ..
-llen-
all the thinking about which way to go started to bring thoughts into my mind.. all of a sudden i started thinking about family.. home.. how nice it'd be if i could have a face to face discussion with mum and dad about it all.. and then i went out to get my dinner at the cafeteria alone.. then i started missing the food back home... how nice it'd be to have a bowl of fish head meehoon.. or kuey teow soup.. ANYTHING warm and soupy and can be eaten with chopsticks.. and porridge too..and all our family gatherings with awesome food..and how nice it'd be for us to just get into bro's car and go out for lunch together..how much fun it was to hang out in bro's room watching movies or series together and watching him play cool coomputer games with cool storyline and sometimes dozing off on his bed and getting scolded by him when he's sleepy and cranky.. and i miss having friends.. only friend i got here now is Kai Ye and she's doing a different course.. most people in class have buddies already and i'll have to just campur into a group, fast.. i miss having credit in my phone which won't run out..i miss malaysian money..
let me sidetrack for a while.. why do the british have a 2 pound/pence coin when they already have a 1 pound/pence coin? how does that make life easier for anyone -.- ..
but i logged on to messenger and had really short chats with a few people and i managed to smile again :) .. thank you so much for making me feel so loved.. i dunno what i did to deserve all the love and support i get from the people around me and i promise to make it up to all of you one day :') ..
now, time to hit the books and leave the deep thinking for the weekends ._. ..
-llen-
posted by llen at 1:41 AM
2 Comments:
cousin!
are u getting the messages i leave on the comments?
come come, hug hug... ur post makes me think back of my time in adelaide! i wish i could be there to give u a real hug... just remember, this is the hard time, the toughest... get through this, fall into a routine and your new lifestyle, and u'll start to miss it when u come back... remember how u felt weird in college when u started? and then how u felt sad that it's ending? it's always like that... build up the strength to get through this l'il sis, and then start enjoying it...
pst, rachel's been reciting every other day, that there's 2 person that she need to miss, eric Q and ellen ahyee... muacks...
yea i am..thanks for all the hugs :D
i'll do my best to toughen up quick..feel much better today :) ..
haha.. tell Rachel ah yee misses her too <3
Post a Comment
<< Home