lost

perhaps i knew that i was lost but all i can say is i never thought i would be so off track..

i guess there comes a time when you really have to hit pause and think about how you got to where you are in life.
i don't know if i just have a very negative self image but there doesn't seem to be anything that i can confidently say i'm good at that would allow me to have a career..

i don't market myself very well..i don't talk a lot.. i don't have inspiring awesome wonderful fantastic ideas that could change the world or contribute to humankind.. sometimes i feel my brain is just empty..
i don't read up on things i should to engage in intelligent conversation.. all i do most of the time is live in a bubble i suppose..

i guess at the end of the day i brought everything onto myself.. i didn't put in enough effort.. maybe i didn't love it enough to put in the effort.. maybe i'm just not cut out for it..

whatever the reason.. it's in the past.. the only thing that i can do now is make lemonade..

-llen-