in need of a holiday :/

Though i am on holiday but..*sigh*

sometimes i wish i didn't decide to retake my practical exam..but i know i'd regret if i didn't..
but when it gets in the way of planning a trip or even an outing i can't help but feel like i shouldn't have made this decision.. but what's done is done i suppose.. nothing left to do but to face the music..

meanwhile bro gets to jet around the world while i'm stuck at home.... hmm... worst part is i'm not authorised to drive alone yet.. hrmph..

and then a thought hits me! i could go visit my friends in faraway places too couldn't i?? :D
but guilt pulls me back and i decide to zip my mouth and be reasonable.. maybe next time..

hopefully someday i'll earn a whole load of money and be able to travel wherever i want, guilt-free..

or maybe i should stop being so..demanding..and so whiny.. (it's always after i type something like this out i think about children and people in poverty and how blessed i am already..urgh..ok, i'll stop complaining now..)

-llen-