when you know what's possible..

For many years I've been told that I am..fat.. looking back at the times when i was much lighter than i am now i wonder why my dad would keep nagging at me to exercise.. i guess it was partly because i enjoyed eating but i think partly also was the fact that i have a bigger frame than most girls making me look larger even when i wasn't really overweight/fat (and perhaps a bit of dad never being happy with some aspects of me...)..so i guess the only way that people would think i'm thin is if i bring my BMI down to the underweight range which is something i don't really want to do and also wonder if it's even possible @.@  

Anyways..this time when i got home dad nagged at me about being fat again... only this time i could reallyfeel it too.. i didn't like the way i looked and i didn't like how so many clothes didn't fit any more D: but at the same time i guess i'm not all that good at any sport.. i definitely didn't have the stamina to run a lot... or so i thought...

I guess i never really knew what i could achieve if i really set my heart on it but i'm glad that i know now :) So here's the story...

The other day bro was nice enough to teach me how to run..you may wonder what is there to teach about running?? you just.....run...!
well apparently for someone like me it means a lot.. long story short, bro was pretty much a pacer for me.. i just followed his lead and we jogged the slowest jog i have ever done BUT it was probably the longest jog i have ever done too.. we were jogging for 2 km non stop.. i know it's not much to many people but for me? someone who keeps getting told she's fat but still likes to eat and always thinks that there ain't no such thing as stamina in her body... it felt like a really great achievement.. but of course the next day i was suffering from a lot of pain due to my poor muscle tone..

To really lose weight i knew that i had to be consistent.. i needed to get myself out and running.. so bro told me to get the Nike running app and with that i could track my progress..And for further motivation, he told me to read this comic by the oatmeal.. it was truly inspiring!! :') and on the days that i didn't really feel like running i thought about the blerch..

So armed with all that motivation and a determination to lose weight, i began running on my own without bro as my pacer.. i started off with 1km+ and after a few runs i'm finally at the point where i can comfortably go for 2km non stop :3 ..

I never imagined all this was possible but i guess that first step was all i needed, the first push.. so never tell yourself you can't do something coz once you know what your potential is you'll be able to do so much more :)





So one of my new long term goals is to be able to run 10km non stop...and an even longer term goal, 21km :3 it sounds impossible but..we'll see ;)

-llen-