the weirdo i am..

my eyes welled up for the first time today (note that the tears didn't roll down my face :D ) .. what a failure -.- ..

all the thinking about which way to go started to bring thoughts into my mind.. all of a sudden i started thinking about family.. home.. how nice it'd be if i could have a face to face discussion with mum and dad about it all.. and then i went out to get my dinner at the cafeteria alone.. then i started missing the food back home... how nice it'd be to have a bowl of fish head meehoon.. or kuey teow soup.. ANYTHING warm and soupy and can be eaten with chopsticks.. and porridge too..and all our family gatherings with awesome food..and how nice it'd be for us to just get into bro's car and go out for lunch together..how much fun it was to hang out in bro's room watching movies or series together and watching him play cool coomputer games with cool storyline and sometimes dozing off on his bed and getting scolded by him when he's sleepy and cranky.. and i miss having friends.. only friend i got here now is Kai Ye and she's doing a different course.. most people in class have buddies already and i'll have to just campur into a group, fast.. i miss having credit in my phone which won't run out..i miss malaysian money..

let me sidetrack for a while.. why do the british have a 2 pound/pence coin when they already have a 1 pound/pence coin? how does that make life easier for anyone -.- ..

but i logged on to messenger and had really short chats with a few people and i managed to smile again :) .. thank you so much for making me feel so loved.. i dunno what i did to deserve all the love and support i get from the people around me and i promise to make it up to all of you one day :') ..

now, time to hit the books and leave the deep thinking for the weekends ._. ..

-llen-

timing...

Came back from lectures today and there was an email from the placement centre...

It was my offer letter from Melbourne Uni..

should i consider it? a chance at a 3-year course instead of 4 years.. and a proper first year uni experience with orientation and everything....

if this letter came earlier i wouldn't be stuck in a situation like this...

every step of the way i kept thinking it was a sign from god... now i'm trying to figure out what god is trying to tell me...

-llen-

"all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go... "

BUT I CAN'T GO YET ARGHHH....


-llen-

the quest for truth...

A few days ago i saw a video clip that was being shared by quite a few of my friends.. the name of the clip is "Girl dies (not fake)" ..

When i saw that title.. i didn't really wanna watch it but out of curiosity, i did..
At the start of the video i thought.. maybe she got scared by her friend, suffered a heart attack and died.. coz i couldn't really imagine how it'd play out...

But i found out soon enough.. and i was quite shocked by that video.. and a big part of me thought it had to be real and yet.. a tiny little voice inside thought.. maybe it's not true?
Bro saw me watching the video and asked "what, so your quest for the truth begins again?"
at that moment..the way he said it made me feel kinda embarassed..it made me feel like i was trying to question someone's death.. so i didn't "begin my quest for the truth"...

Then today when another friend shared it on facebook i felt like.. maybe searching for the truth ain't such a bad idea... and so, the quest began....

Many people have been wondering if it's real or fake.. and many people have already concluded that it is fake due to some reasons, such as why isn't there a news report on it (which to me is the biggest factor that makes the reality of the video questionable) ? why was her friend still filming instead of dropping the camera in shock? how could she have been pulled under the car by that hit instead of flying up the windscreen? why is it even on youtube?

Based on those questions.. it all points to the conclusion that the video is a fake..

BUT.. is it really fake..? honestly, i don't know -.- .. only the person who made the video knows and hopefully the truth will be revealed soon.. but for those who have watched it.. do you think it's real? o.O

Update: wheee... the video is confirmed a fake :D .. proof? the actress has a twitter account :)

-llen-

fattening up...

*walking in front of bro*
Bro: Eh.. you really fat liao lehh...
Me: yea.. i know... i'm fattening up for winter you know..


-.- .. i know.. it's a lame excuse for not having exercised.. what's worse is that i'm blessed with a family that loves me very much and will feed me with their delicious creations regardless of my rotundness ._. ..


-llen-

technology...

on results day i tried to check my results with the online system and failed..
i later found out that a lot of people were having this problem.. fine..

and then i submitted my visa last friday... i tried to track it on monday, "invalid search" ..
i tracked it on wednesday since tuesday was a public holiday, "invalid search"
i track it today... "invalid search"

i'm starting to feel like these online systems hate me -.- ..

and now i'm preparing myself for the day my visa doesn't get approved on time..


-llen-