post-CNY CNY celebration...

It was two days after CNY ended when the Malaysian-Bruneian-Singaporean (name still pending decision between BAMS or MABSSUE) society celebrated CNY ..

I found out about the celebration and got involved totally by coincidence..haha..
They had their meeting at the chaplaincy and i happened to be there to see if i could use the piano.. and since the piano was occupied my friend said i should go to the meeting..so i went..... the first ever meeting i go to, they divided tasks for people to do ... and from the list of food we get to volunteer to make...i decided to volunteer making cheesecake :3 ..

I was really excited... somehow.. i guess i just miss being able to bake whatever, whenever i want... from my excitement, i went to get a hand mixer, kitchen scale, baking tins..haha.. i know..it may seem wasteful of resources BUT i'm gonna need it next year anyways ..hehe... and did a trial run coz i was really afraid of screwing up...
I'll cut to the chase and say the trial run cake didn't turn out so well.. but the good thing was the 2 cakes we made for the event turned out good...

The event was mainly just eating and socialising... there were lots of food, all prepared by students.. fried rice, bihun, sweet and sour fish, lemon chicken, stir fried vegetables, soup, steamed egg, "tang yuan" , green bean soup, jelly, chrysanthemum tea and drinks... it was a feast! :D

After everyone left.. i went to the uni pub with a few friends... i've been here for almost 6 months now and i've never been there for a drink..haha... which is a good thing i suppose...? :3
one of the guys apparently LOVES tequila and he probably was trying to educate us young impressionable "kids" (compared to him we're probably kids anyways since he is a phd student -.- ) so he got a tequila for my friend to try :X ..she took it well though :)..he even had an electric cigarette and asked my friends to try.. :/


and that pretty much sums up the day.. :) ..i'm too lazy to upload any pictures now so i might do it later..hehe...


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*sigh*

part of meeting new people is learning that not everyone will get you...

but when you meet somebody who does get you, and doesn't run away --> :D

i'm grateful for the people who take me as i am and stick by me.. thank you, friends!! :)


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Un-Malaysian...

today i learnt... i look nothing like a Malaysian ._.

We had a post-CNY CNY celebration organised by the malaysian-bruneian-singaporean society..
i was having a chat with some of the Malay girls with a few Chinese girls (from China, not malaysian chinese) around me..and when the malay girl asked me where i was from and i said i was Malaysian she got shocked -.- .. she thought i was from China!!

after that we went for drinks at the uni pub(my first time there).. and there was an Indian guy... and he told me he thought i was Nepalese or Northern Indian at first!!!

geeez.. i guess i look like everything BUT Malaysian -.- ...

more about the celebration next time! :)


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half a world away.....

this song may not be so appropriate for the situation but..it's the only i can think of XD

first, Xing Leng left to Aussie... and i thought it may not make a difference since i don't see her everyday anyway...but somehow, it does make a difference.. i miss you Alexis and i hope to talk to you soon :)


this sunday, it's going to be Yi Min's turn... my duet partner, my anime partner, the person who introduced cool japanese dramas to me..the friend who i can be nuts around... and i hate the fact i didn't even get to see her before i left M'sia ._. .. and what's worse is the fact that we probably may not see each other for 2 years or even more :( .. i'm gonna miss her a lot, i already do....

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Happy Valentine's Day :)

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things that piss me off.....

maybe i'm too sensitive..maybe i'm too impatient ... but i'm human.. and sometimes i can't help getting mad at some things/people.. (it's going to be very vague and non-specific coz it's too dangerous to be too specific -.- .. if i get too specific i'm gonna have to privatise the blog...)

pretentious people get on my nerves especially... i get behaving a little differently around certain people..sometimes you need to speak a certain way with different people, that's fine.. sometimes you need to control your behaviour around certain people and that's fine too.. i do that sometimes when it's necessary too...
but when someone's too volatile, it's so hard working out who they really are.. it's just difficult being around such people... especially when they are pretentious to you very frequently..

and then there are people who say this and do that.. say something about someone else but are that way themselves... i really don't get it... do they not see it? if they don't see it then it's fine but if they do then i really don't know what to say...

then there's also people who jump to conclusions about you.. people who assume you are this way when actually you didn't mean to come off that way.. (and if you really thought of me as a friend you probably wouldn't have said that in front of some other people and as though i've done something so wrong and try to humiliate me in your own way coz see how it ended?)

people who expect you to be there for them all the time and people who think they come first on the list, on ANYBODY'S bloody list..geeez... i'm all for being a good friend and helping out people and stuff and especially when it's important/urgent but saying as though it's so urgent when it isn't at all just because you can't wait for a few more minutes?

pfft, screw you.... am i not human to you? do i not have my needs? do i not have priorities in my life? am i just someone who's there for you to conveniently push around when you fancy it?
it's not like you really care about me anyways.. ok..maybe you do care but if i really felt like you cared i probably wouldn't be doubting it would i??

i can tolerate many things.. once or twice, maybe even more than that.. i don't mind helping people out, i really don't..

but at some point i think it's gonna come loose..when i finally can't stand it anymore i will just erupt.. and i can feel it unravelling already...in fact, i can feel the volcano has boiled over a few times now...but not fully erupted yet...

and yet..i know it's silly, i know it's stupid.. but i do hope that people won't dislike/hate me for no good reason.. maybe i've hurt people's feelings before too.. and i'm really sorry if i have (though people who i've hurt probably won't be reading this anyways...)

maybe it's silly of me to hope that people won't hate/dislike me.. because it's impossible for everyone to like you even if you've been nice to everyone... yiishhh...

but at the end of it all..i know i'll probably continue being pushed around by you.. i'll continue holding it all in.. coz you can never tell someone things like this, it'll only end badly..
i don't hate/dislike you all the time.. and whenever i feel i do, i somehow convince myself to not feel that way about you because it's not true all the time.. sometimes you can be really nice and then i feel guilty for ever disliking you but when you get on my nerves again the cycle repeats itself and it's just so damned frustrating...grrrr....

the fact that you are so loved by so many people, well.. maybe it's me that has a problem.. coz there can't be so many blind people out there... or could there?


*sigh*

feeling much better now... maybe i have erupted... and thankfully it's here instead of in your face..

next post will be a happy one, i promise...

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i feel it in my fingers, i feel it in my toes~~

i didn't really realise that...it's February already!!!!!!!! ahhh!!!!

this is exactly what i meant when i skyped with mum and dad..

Me: Aiya... time will pass so fast ..whoooosh!!! and it'll be May and i'll be home~~ :D :D
Dad: oi.. you better don't whoosh here whoosh there.. study come first ok!
Me: i know -.- ....

And since it's February...it just means i'm that much closer to going home...whee!!! i still don't think i'm homesick..it's just something to look forward to :3

but i guess the CNY feel is starting to creep up on me...

A bunch of Malaysians organised a reunion dinner and i was invited to join them.. all of them were actuarial science students though..hehe..

We had yee sang and quite a few dishes to feast on..there was even soup!! sure, it didn't taste like mum's cooking.. (mum's cooking is hard to beat anyway ;D ) but the food was really good.. and there was even ba gua which one of the girls made...

with today being CNY eve.. some memory of what we always do popped into my head... mum would probably be cooking either late into the night or she'd get up early in the morning to finish up the cooking.. sometimes i could help mum out.. sometimes i'd just be a disturbance if i went into the ktichen..haha..

through the years, our family CNY eve reunion dinner group got slightly smaller.. cous got married and it was only natural that she had reunion dinner with her husband's family.. i think there'd only be 8 or 9 of us?? i guess this year it'll be an even smaller group with me and bro away...

but of course, CNY being 15 days long, we'd have the opportunity to have the big family dinner.. that's possibly one of the best things about CNY i guess.. coz even though we don't usually need reasons to have the big family dinners (we actually do it quite often), CNY is one of the times when everyone in the family will be free :)

i think what i really miss right now is being in the kitchen with mum, nuisance or not..
and also those TV programmes they show during CNY... and prawn crackers...and snacks in the jars that aunt will always have on the table for guests..CNY cookies.. packet drinks..100 plus.. family...friends... the heat at grandma's house (it's always hot when we visit during CNY :/ ) the shopping centres with CNY decor and music... and of course, dad blasting the CNY tunes from the same CDs he's been using since we were little kids.. ah...good times...


Happy CNY everybody :)


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Haggis...

A traditional Scottish dish..which i wasn't 100% sure of what it contained when i ate it..3 times now in total..haha..

Haggis consists of sheep's lung, heart and liver.. there's oatmeal and other stuff in it too but people usually don't care about the other stuff...haha..anyways.. i knew it was to do with sheep's insides..but i didn't expect it to be heart, liver and lungs............

First time i had it was at the pastor's house and his wife didn't really tell us what it was and i only had a small spoonful of it and it didn't taste disgusting... Second time i had haggis, it was in a pizza.. so small amounts too and it was actually quite nice...

the third time was during Burn's supper, an event celebrating Robert Burns (the guy who wrote Auld Lang Syne) birthday.. i was served a mountain of haggis with mashed turnips and mashed potatoes which is probably the traditional way of having it...

Haggis wi' bashit neeps an' champit tatties -that's what it says on the menu...

It was such a big pile that i couldn't finish it... all the chewing made my jaw tired -.- .. but it was also that day that i found out what haggis really is... *sigh* .. but surprisingly, i wasn't disgusted by what it was.. the first thing i thought about was "wahhhhh! so much cholesterol!!!!" ..haha.. maybe i could be the next Andrew Zimmern ;D .. though i'm pretty sure i won't be trying any animal's testicles anytime soon :/



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