in need of a holiday :/

Though i am on holiday but..*sigh*

sometimes i wish i didn't decide to retake my practical exam..but i know i'd regret if i didn't..
but when it gets in the way of planning a trip or even an outing i can't help but feel like i shouldn't have made this decision.. but what's done is done i suppose.. nothing left to do but to face the music..

meanwhile bro gets to jet around the world while i'm stuck at home.... hmm... worst part is i'm not authorised to drive alone yet.. hrmph..

and then a thought hits me! i could go visit my friends in faraway places too couldn't i?? :D
but guilt pulls me back and i decide to zip my mouth and be reasonable.. maybe next time..

hopefully someday i'll earn a whole load of money and be able to travel wherever i want, guilt-free..

or maybe i should stop being so..demanding..and so whiny.. (it's always after i type something like this out i think about children and people in poverty and how blessed i am already..urgh..ok, i'll stop complaining now..)

-llen-

a saturday in...

supposed to be celebrating synjoe's birthday tonight but in the end transport issues came up...*sigh* i've had to cancel on quite a few people in these weeks.. feel like i've been disappointing people a lot lately.. gotta make it up to these people somehow :/

but since i'm stuck at home i thought i'd better do something i've been putting off for a long time...

i decided to tidy up my room...... because even though i've tidied it up once since i was back, i managed to mess it all up..yet again.. it's a vicious cycle...but a cycle i've come to accept coz i kinda believe it's something about myself that might never change -.-

so as i go through the empty boxes, the receipts, the tags that come with clothes, empty bottles.. sorting out clothes.. i still find it hard to chuck some things away.. especially the receipts..
yes they are of no use now and i won't ever have the time to go through each and every one and even if one fine day i do find the time it might all be faded already.. but i still find it hard to let go of these tiny pieces of paper..

which explains why after a few hours, my room is no tidier.. in fact, it may even be messier than before -.- ..

*deep breath*

shall get back to work now...

but out of curiosity, does anyone else keep receipts (purely for sentimental purposes), clothes tags or movie ticket stubs? :/


-llen-