i suddenly realise...

Tonight will be my last night sleeping on this bed, in this flat....

It feels a little different this time compared to last year coz i must've had more time to process this last year.. this time around it feels a bit sudden..

There's so many things I'm gonna miss about this room, this flat.. I really do like this room... ._.
I'm going to miss hearing the sounds of the saxophone that the guy in the opposite block occasionally plays.. i'm going to miss being in such a good location, so close to everything..

i've grown attached to this room..  i've enjoyed living with the people that i've lived with.. though i've never really bonded with them but it was still really nice..

good thing is that this flat is just nearby where i'll be staying in the future and i'll definitely have the opportunity to come around just to look at the flat next time :)

for now, it's time for bed.. not looking to repeat history..

home soon...

-llen-

that time of year..

this is the time of year when people start leaving..

the first step is getting exams outta the way (which time will take care of for you)
then comes the packing.. being horrified by the amount of clothes you have accumulated (i guess this only applies to girls :/ )..the amount of train tickets (coz over here a journey can produce 3 tickets minimum)..receipts, leaflets.. all that i PLANNED to keep but seeing as i just have too much stuff i had to dump it in the recycle bin..

the whole experience ALWAYS brings back the memory of when my cousin sister was telling me about how this would happen.. it has been a habit of mine to collect..stuff.. any stuff .. the habit never died.. but she did tell me that she used to collect a bunch of stuff too but there will come the time when you'll have to throw it ALL away..

anyways, packing!

i'm lucky enough to have friends who would let me store my stuff at theirs over the summer for free.. so off i went today to create a tower of my things.. i'm a little too ashamed to get a picture of it.. but i'll admit, dad was probably right when he said i had too much stuff *sigh*

now that i've taken my poster, calendar and random notices off the wall, the walls have just become so bare.. so cold..

there are less students walking around than usual, there are less sounds coming from around the accommodation block (though more sounds from my neighbour and her guy *cough cough*).. parents are coming up with their cars to take their kids (and their luggages) home

staying in an area where the population is mostly students has this effect i suppose.. the city just seems different come this time of year..

and then there's the goodbyes.. friends who you're not even sure if you'll ever see again coz the future is just so uncertain..

but once you get over all the shock, tiredness, sadness, it's always comforting to know that on the other side of the world, there are people counting down the days with you.. awaiting your arrival.. looking forward to seeing you. i'm truly blessed for those people in my life <3

so right now i'll just need to get through 6 days here.. not having much to do anymore.. and my main mission for now would be to clear the food i have *sigh* ... there's no losing weight at this rate...

-llen-

some things never fade..

In primary school, we weren't so high-tech yet..

Some of us had little address books and we wrote down our friends' birthdays and addresses, not so we could send letters or anything.. i guess it was just kinda fun to do that... and i guess it was also because when you get their phone number might as well just get the other details as well..

we sorta always knew each other's birthdays.. (or at least i did my best to remember my friends' birthdays..) not that i'm bitter or anything but my birthday was pretty often-forgotten ._. .. a few years it was on the first day of school..hehe.. not that it's a big deal and i'd want a bunch of people to remember but you know how you hope just THOSE few people would remember?

anyways.. the 9th of may is the birthday of 2 of my friends.. and we're not really close anymore unfortunately.. but the thing is, without the help of facebook i somehow manage to remember their birthdays every year.. i guess it helps to remember that mum's birthday is on the 10th.. but there are quite a few dates that are somehow stuck in my mind.. sometimes on that day i'd be wondering about something i'd forgotten to do.. then it strikes me that it's somebody's birthday...

moving onto secondary school, we were a biiiiit more high tech ;D .. so i guess relying on technology so much does have its consequences.. friends who are quite close to me, i didn't remember their birthdays so easily at first.. but i'm glad that i do now.. hehe..

i guess what i was thinking about was the way our minds retain information.. yea i know it's no new discovery but i still find it pretty interesting what a child's mind can soak up and keep... if i ever have a kid in future, i'm gonna bombard him/her with cool/interesting/useful  facts/languages/skills XD ..

-llen-

it's gonna be an anxious summer....

i mean it when i say this, i've never felt so not confident after an exam before... what makes it worse is the fact that i need to at least pass this paper or i won't get into 3rd year .. and also if i were to fail and need to retake the paper i'll have to fly back to the UK in august.. and i already bought my flight ticket which means changing the flight would cost me extra and also my holiday would be cut short... so ...yea.. this totally sucks... *sigh* and don't get me started on how disappointed the family would be..

on the bright side (yes, i'm telling myself there still is a bright side.....coz there always is one right?!?!?! .....gosh i sound delusional.....)
i have one paper left and it's not so soon so i have time to study for it... and home in 20 days :) 

so for now.. all i'm gonna do is think about the upcoming paper.....


-llen-