flashback..

Reading about my niece growing up and getting ready for school gave me an unexpected memory..
I remember in primary school (hmm.. i think in secondary school too..) we'd get these book lists and we had to go to the school bookshop to get our textbooks before the school year started.. there would always be extra workbooks on sale and i dunno why i'd ask mum to get them.. (not like i actually knew the answers to standard 6 stuff when i was in standard 5 -.- maybe i just liked buying stuff)

Anyway..i guess it just brought back memories of mum taking me to school..how everything seemed so big.. coz i remember when i went back to primary school everything seemed incredibly tiny..(especially the level of the sinks in the toilet..) how the books smelt and felt..our desks with the "longkang" for pencils..having a locker was nice :) .. the sticky icky smell of the canteen..and how it kinda never felt really clean..the blue lunch trays with food in compartments.. how friday was free ice cream day.. how we played during lunchtime.. and of course there was young stupidity as well.. those "i friend you, i don't friend you" phases amongst other things..  there were days when i'd dread going to school.. but at the end of it all i did miss it..

it's the first time i'm watching someone grow up.. watching someone go through the phases of life that i'd once been through.. hoping that she won't get bullied (or she won't bully anyone :p ) ..hoping she will learn lotsa good stuff and less of the bad stuff (SOME bad stuff is definitely going to appear..) .. it's pretty incredible (to me at least) that in about 6 years time she'll be off to secondary school...!! time just seems to be zooming by ...

-llen-

fear..

often times irrational... but that doesn't stop anyone from having fears....

i'm ok with cockroaches and lizards...bees to a certain extent..i wasn't sure how i'd feel about mice coz i've never had to deal with one before..untl yesterday night...

Twas a peaceful friday night when i was just about to make myself comfortable in my bed to study (it's too cold to study at the table...) when my flatmate started calling me.. she usually comes to my room to talk but yesterday she was just calling me from the living room..

thinking it wasn't a big deal i went and she said there was a mouse............

a mouse....

i couldn't believe it at first coz our flat is not that dirty....... how can a mouse exist in our not very dirty flat??? until i saw it with my own eyes......a mouse... in the corner......

we were quite calm at first, deciding that we should close the door so it can't go anywhere else...

but when it started to run, we started screaming......

it was a tiny little mouse which admittedly was kinda cute when it wasn't running around... but we still had to get rid of it.....

after around half an hour of screaming and chasing, we got it under a bin......... *wheew* ...

i'll admit, when it comes to pests i can be pretty inhumane..so i left it under the bin till the next die..and it had already died when i woke up to bag it and dispose it...

the worst part is the fact it was a BABY mouse.. and everyone says, when it's a baby, there's always more mice.. MORE.... arghhhhhh *insert "The Scream" by Edvard Munch*

so right after disposing of the mouse and discovering the horror that there might be more i just HAD to get rat/mouse poison..

and now even with the poison strategically placed around the house...i still can't help feeling paranoid and afraid.... *sigh* ... nothing has made me this paranoid before...... but all i can do is live in fear in my own home........

-llen-

是你的就是你的。。

*sigh*..

i was browsing through 2nd hand keyboards for sale coz i thought it'd be nice to have one in the flat instead of having to go to uni for a possibility of getting to play on the piano..

so i found one the other day and the seller lives just down the street!! and the price was pretty reasonable.. so i arranged to meet him on friday..

but i just got his email saying he'd sold it already D: 

guess it just wasn't meant to be.......

-llen-

pizza OD....

it's the week before exams so i'm a bit reluctant to do any cooking... so i came up with a "brilliant" plan...

i'll order a big pizza and eat it over a few days for lunch and dinner so i don't have to cook at all.. and that i did.. along with a side of garlic bread..didn't really want the garlic bread but had to meet the minimum amount for delivery

i guess mainly it's my fault for not drinking enough water that i'm feeling a little overdosed with dough.. so much carbs.. and i'm feeling a little dehydrated :S .. i think my face is becoming rounder and it's only day 2.. (3 pizza meals so far) .. glad tomorrow will be the last day.... @.@ ..

never again.........................

-llen-