2nd time around...

I got up early today despite sleeping quite late (was watching desperate housewives on xunlei..hehe) ..

i told mum to get ready so we could go to the book sale :) ...

We arrived 10 plus.. i said "ooh.. not too packed today.." then mum said :"like this you consider not packed ahh??" ... -.- ... i didn't notice at first but there wasn't a whole table dedicated to cookbooks anymore... but i did pick up on the additional tables for fiction <3 ... went round and round looking for Grisham..or Archer's prison diaries.. found a lot of other stuff too :) ... mum got 3 books and i got 16 ... XD ... and the total was only 130+ ... coz there's an additional 10% for OCBC card holders... muahahaha....

Mum said she overheard a lady saying that she came on the first day..the 2nd day..3rd day..and today.. and mum thought she was crazy -.- ...then i said.. "Ehh.. actually i thought of going tomorrow after college again... " then mum said "You got mental problem ahh?? (shen jing bing) "

but i only wanna go back to find "Joy Luck Club" by Amy Tan, Jeffrey Archer's prison diary I .. coz i found II and III but no I -.- ... and I was hoping to get more Grishams :( ... but anyway.. i'm already quite satisfied... :D ... it's a good thing they restock everyday but the bad thing is we won't know if they're gonna put some stuff the next day that wasn't there today.. haih...

so these are the stuff i bought from the sale listed out.. kekeke...

From first day:
1. Playing for Pizza by John Grisham
2. Hilary Clinton Her Way: The Biography by Jeff Gerth & Don Van Natta Jr.
3. The Wicked Wit of Oscar Wilde compiled by Maria Leach
4. Bridge of Sighs by Richard Russo
5. The Martha Stewart Living Cookbook
6. Marcoeconomics (it's not a book..)

Today: (excluding mum's stuff)
1. Collins French Dictionary
2. Collins Italian Dictionary
3. The Reader (translated from German by Carol Brown Janeway) by Bernard Schlink
4. The Associate by John Grisham
5. Moby Dick by Herman Melville
6. Bleak House by Charles Dickens
7. Carrie by Stephen King
8. The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon by Stephen King
9. Duma Key by Stephen King
10. The Running Man by Stephen King
11. The Old Man and the Sea by Ernest Hemingway
12. Tom Jones by Henry Fielding
13. Gulliver's Travels by Jonathan Swift
14. Destination Unknown by Agatha Christie
15. A Prison Diary II by Jeffrey Archer
16. A Prison Diary III by Jeffrey Archer


Hopefully they'll have another one of these sales next year :) ... and hopefully it won't be in Amcorp Mall next time :/ ... I've been enjoying myself too much I think..hehe... time to get my homework done XD... it just feels like it's the holidays already -.- ...

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Lima perempuan...

It started yesterday when chinli sms-ed me and asked if i wanted to hang out on saturday...and coincidentally i didn't have piano class on saturday this week so i said i would go out with them :) ..

Then at about 10am chinli said we were gonna postpone the outing to tomorrow.. and i didn't mind either so i replied ok ...

I did my own stuff.. watched tv... had lunch... lazed around... then just when i was about to go out for my haircut i received a call from Yi Min..

YM: Ellen, are you at home now? are you going out?
Me: I'm home but i'm about to go out for my haircut...why?
YM: Ohh... can you stay at home ahh? we wanna go to your house...
Me: ohhh.... ok..


It was quite a surprise.. coz we don't usually visit each other.. in fact we never did before.. we usually go out somewhere for a movie and makan and chit chat... so i stayed in and waited for them to come...

I thought it'd be chinli, yimin and joeann only... (coz i could hear joeann's voice over the phone.hehe) but turns out kahyee came too!! :) ... i took them to Pn Wong's bakery.. didn't see her there though... then i thought i had to follow my parents to dinner but turns out bro wasn't following so i asked if i could watch a movie with my buddies and dad let me go :D ... super happy!!

Then we went to the nearest cinema... bukit raja -.- ... i don't remember when i last watched a movie there.. hehe..but i'm not complaining :) .. i had great company....
we watched Ninja Assassin... mm... that movie is quite... ridiculous i think.. how many people have their hearts on the right and not the left -.- ... in the end i guess the movie's all about the power of love...

despite the bloody and ridiculous movie i had a great time :D ... i waited for my parents to pick me up at Kahyee's house and she introduced me to xunlei (not to be mistaken with "sour pear" XD) ... gonna try it out :) ...

gotta get an early rest today... going to the book sale again tomorrow!!!

-llen-

After classes today i went over to Amcorp Mall for the big bad book sale :) ...

I was very excited... dreaming of the books that i hoped i could get there... when i reached the entrance i saw a lady walking out with a bag of books already.. and since it was on the 3rd floor as i went up the escalator more and more people were coming down with bags and bags of books..being an economics student... *ahem* i saw it as a bad sign... that just meant less books for me...

As i got to the entrance... i was feeling so... :( & -.- ... there were so many people there... cousin SW thought of coming but when i saw the crowd..and remembering the fact that she is pregnant... i quickly sms-ed her to tell her it was super packed... i went in with a mental list of what i wanted to get for myself and looked around for nice stuff for cousin SW, Rachel. mum, bro and my aunt ... i started browsing a few books when i thought.. hmm..maybe i should scout around to see the overall setup first.. so i did just that.. and to my dismay i couldn't find a lot of things i wanted and it was so packed that i felt kinda... &$#^%$@&^...

Seriously!! why would you bring your kids to events like these?? especially those who had babies in prams and babies they had to carry... WHY??? ... i don't see the sense in it at all...

ok.. anyways..i went through the whole place a few times..in the end i only picked up one Grisham book..and it's not even the normal crime thrillers.. i got a biography of Hilary Clinton.. a big cookbook from Martha Stewart... (dunno if aunt has one so i didn't know if i shuold have gotten another one for her birthday ): ) ... an Oscar Wilde thingy which i thought was a biography but turned out to be quotes... a little erm.. booklet thingy about macroeconomics XD .. and a novel called Bridge of Sighs... not sure if it's good though.. :/ .. but i was lucky when mum came there was barely a queue at the cashier so i quickly paid and got out... before that it was such a long queue i got scared.... the total was RM52... and THAT is cheap...

the books aren't even in bad condition (if you pick wisely...) and the books would've cost at least 4 times more than the prices at the sale... like the cookbook which probably would've costed me at least rm80 and i got it for rm20!! but in the end if you don't find the books you're looking for it's not worth squeezing around with everyone.. the way they cough and some of them treat the books like... like... just because they dun wanna buy it means they can simply throw and crumple the books... hmph.. hate that kinda people :( ...

There were many "almost buy"s for me but.. i thought mum would say im silly and wasting her money for getting them so i didn't....but in the end she said i was silly for not getting them... i am hoping that they will restock.. and since my hunger for books is not satisfied yet i will be going again either tomorrow or saturday!! this time early in the morning... and if i still don't get what i want.. it won't be too bad coz we can go to A&W's after buying.. XD

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2 more days before the weekends... i've gotten too used to exam hours.. now it's back to college time i feel so tired.. -.- ... then we have one more week before total freedom~~

picking up A2 stuff again is kinda scary...especially for maths... i just sat there extremely blur yesterday ....if that happens in January after our long holidays.. *shudder* ...

but on a happier note... i can't wait for the super duper book sale >< ... i might go this weekend...gotta thank siu wee for talking about it on facebook ;) ..
imagine a Grisham book.. from RM33.90 to RM8 ... and cookbooks from RM100+ to RM20.... it's super cheap..!!!! though i might have been thinking about the sale too much coz i actually dreamt of it... i dreamt that i took 2 books and put it aside and browsed some other books... then when i turned back... my books were gone!! maybe it's a sign that i should guard my books well during the sale XD .. i just hope it won't be too packed and people won't be shoving and pushing and crumpling the book covers...


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long day... phew..

Finally... AS exams are OVER...

It's been a long day mainly because i couldn't sleep yesterday.. could've been the green tea from dinner time... i just couldn't sleep... -.- .. and the house alarm even went off at 3 something just when i tried to sleep...haih...

So after the paper most of the class went to sunway to celebrate..by watching 2012... overall i think it was a nice movie. just a little too much of the effects... that it became so....overwhelming.. but i do wonder if they tried to incorporate the story about Noah' ark into the movie..hm..

After the movie the whole bunch of them wanted to go to Manhattan fish market and ... i didn't feel hungry enough to stomach that... so i passed.. followed Wun Yeun to the camera store... then followed Xing Leng to the optical store... walk walk walk.. and ahh.. about time for me to go back..

But i didn't go home..haha..i was deciding between going home to sleep or go to mum's office and wait and when she finishes work we could walk around before going home.. so... since i'm celebrating my freedom i decided to go all out XD ...

By the time i got to midvalley i was hungry so i had a late and lonely lunch...got some juice and went to mum's office..tried to do theory homework but i fell asleep... hehe... but after waiting for mum to finish up she did take me for a little look-seeing so i was happy... :) ..

We went back..picked bro up and went out for dinner at modesto's...and i know how to become a member already ...ngiak ngiak ngiak...

.. i think the highlight of my day was when we came back... our porchlight is usually off so when i got down from the car.. i saw a sort of figure lying on the floor between bro and dad's car... it was too dark to tell wat it was so i told mum to switch on light.. and as i went to get my shoes in there was a super super cute fat fat cat!!! i was so happy.... i thought i'd have a pet at last.... it ran off but after we switched on the light we saw it hiding under the car..but its tail was sticking out XD ... but mum didn't want it to be there so.. it had to be chased away -.- ... but now we know wat triggered the alarm last night..hehe... there were other cats who trespassed before :) ..


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Tomorrow...tomorrow... you're only a day away~~~

aiya... no mood to study... -.- .. it's weird frustrating knowing you need to ace the exam and yet everytime you try to study you fall asleep or your mind wanders off somewhere else -.- ...

so once again... i have to burn midnight oil ... then tomorrow enjoy~~~ and monday.. suffer....

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Just one more.....

nyehehehehe.... One last paper on Friday... Chemistry paper 1...

I really hope it will be the end of AS stuff but... i think i'll have to retake some..or a lot of papers next year.. yissh... i'll decide in January -.- ...

Physics wasn't all that bad actually... i wonder why i never liked it before...i just hope i answered correctly -.- ... Right after the exam when we came out it was already raining heavily...the weather now is like "winter".. since we don't have four seasons..it has been raining almost everyday now but it's a good thing i actually like the rain :) ...but it was so heavy today that luckily there's a shade at the front gate where the ATM machine is at... it's actually a nice place to see things.. just to observe human nature... :) ... i even saw my classmates squealing while trying to cross the road under an umbrella... so cute :3 .. like those commercials about friendship XD ...

But more importantly..holidays are coming~~ And i've just set a challenge with my cousin... hoho... we have to lose 5kg by Christmas... that's...about one month from now...? hopefully i'll stay away from all the yummy stuff tempting me... or i could cheat by baking some cookies and cakes and stuff and shoving it into my cousin's stomach...muahahahaha...

other than that... holidays will be a time of catching up with old friends :D ... Haln and El will be back. but not for very long :( ... Yong Jie will be back for an even shorter period of time -.- ... Shien Chen will be flying off i dunno when ... Qiqi won't be back till next year... and i'm pretty sure other people might be flying off next year... heh.. guess that's life... just a matter of getting used to it and keeping in touch... :)

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absolutely unmotivated...

2 more papers to go!!! can't believe the exams will be over so soon.... then it's back to A2 stuff...

Physics paper 2 tomorrow and i'm thinking of everything but physics... -.- ...

wonder when i became so unmotivated when it comes to studying.. :/ ...


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Everytime i think i've made up my mind about something... something else comes up and makes me think twice.. -.- ..

Like how in form 5.. i was so psyched to go for the trinity foundation (and dad was the one who made me so excited..hmm.. maybe i should listen to dad less XD) ...until i found out if i did that i wouldn't be able to practicse law in Malaysia... so fine.. i chose A levels instead...

Now it's about time to think about what to do and i've sent in my application for law.. but as a backup plan Aussie is still an option.. so i went with mum to JM education counselling centre to talk to the Melbourne Uni representative.. Dad has been telling me that his friend's daughter did some business degree in Aussie then went to UK to do law degree and all this in just 5 years... and somehow.. i dunno.. it seemed like a very good idea.. at least dad made it look fun.. about how a businees degree would compliment the law degree well.. blablabla.. such a convincing speech that i was looking towards the future with hope and ambition in my eyes~~~ haha..

*ahem*

Anyways... i thought getting a law degree from melbourne would allow me to practise in Malaysia.. but then.. the lady said so far ..there's no such thing.. and before she told me that.. she asked me. " Why do you want to do law?"

And i honestly froze for a while... i didn't know how to answer her.. i can't say..."coz my parents ask me to".. so... i paused and said out of interest.. which is partially true i guess... and then she asked me again..."which area of law specifically" ...-.- .. i told her contracts.. which again is partially true.. but after that she did lay down some of my options and i guess i have some stuff to think about...

I guess i don't know that much about law really.. and i hate to second guess myself.. law is definitely not my first choice... but after some a lot of brainwashing (i think it started when i was quite young..hmm..).. it turned out to be the most "logical" choice.. it's quite flexi when it comes to jobs in the future... it's useful? .. what else? .. challenging i suppose..? and there doesn't seem to be anything else i can do so.. why not...?

this brings back memories of when YongJie ask me why i wanna do law.. and he said.. "if you're gonna say you wanna uphold justice then why don't you be a policeman.." ermm... it made sense for a while.. but i think they're 2 different things XD ... but ever since then i don't use the "justice" reason anymore...

i think it may be stupid to think like this but.. if i do get rejected by the 5 unis in UK... then..it wasn't meant to be? i should do something else...? god is trying to point me in a different direction? i'm not capable of doing law...?

ahh.. whatever it is ... i'll just go with the flow -.- ... whatever will be, will be~~

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Sometimes you get those chain mails that say you've got no excuse not to keep in touch with your friend... that a phone call really isn't that difficult to make.. etc etc... i usually believe in that part.. it's a good message..but i hate it when they include that "if you don't forward ... will happen to you" crap... hmm.. more on chain mail in the future.. today's story is different...

But as much as i like to believe in that email... as much as i try to keep in touch.. even when it's not a phone call..( coz... i very very rarely call people.. it's a weird habit i developed i guess.. ask me why and i'll tell you some other day... XD ... ) who says it's easy to keep in touch...?

We change all the time.. maybe we don't realise and even when we don't change... who's to say that person who was your best friend from 4 years ago wouldn't change...? sometimes it's sad that you can't do much to help someone when they seem in need of it but sometimes it just feels like.. they don't seem to be trying to make it easier for you to help them... then what are you supposed to do...??

Not everyone can pick up where they left off... some people can go one year being away and still be able to chat like nothing's ever changed.. it's great when that happens..
but when you can't pick up from where you left off it just gets a little sad.. or annoying.. it's like you've become so distant and it's a whole new puzzle to crack before they let you into their lives again..

So... is this all part of the package of growing up... or did we do something wrong along the way...? I'm not exactly troubled by this but it's just kinda disappointing that things would turn out this way... :(


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Don't you just hate it when you try to tweak your biological clock back to normal and it doesn't work...? I tried to sleep at 1am... and after rolling round and round in the blanket i'm still awake right now... at 4am.. arrgghhh...

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too much of a good thing...

Since mum's away at China dad has become (in his own words) the house-husband... which really is not that true... 2 years ago he still attempted to be the househusband by actually cooking us our dinner.. now he just takes us out to eat... -.- ...

Yesterday we had dinner at Centro and it was quite nice... tonight he brought us to Opus.. a place at Bangsar.. supposedly fine dining..but honestly it didn't feel like fine dining.. heh.. when dad said Opus i thought..wahhh.... like symphony... should be a place with bright lighting..probably 2 stories high..lotsa space... but when we arrived.. i noticed it's not called Opus.. it's Opus bistro.. bro even said it had a studio apartment feel.. the pictures i found online were also equally deceiving maybe because they were taken with those wide-angle lens.. Deception #1 ... (but i did notice the staff were more professional than average.. so + points for that.. )

When dad told us he was taking us out to makan there he said it'll be with some of his staff.. he mentioned the name of an aunty i know.. and made it sound like it'll be only a few of them... turns out there would be around 15+ people... -.- ... Deception #2 ...

The experience was overall quite nice... i'd say the food for most parts was average... i really liked one of the starters and the dessert though.. the dessert i had was Chocolate Desire.. and it's a molten chocolate cake with a scoop of ice cream... i didn't know it was molten when i ordered.. and it is quite a big serving... all the chocolate oooooozed out .. but after everything.. i was so extremely full... i felt like i couldn't walk properly...

and now... my eyes feel like shutting but my tummy is so full i don't think i can lie down and sleep comfortably.. -.- .. which results in me skipping tomorrow's physics extra class..haih..gues i'll just study at home...
hmm.. i get the feeling that whenever dad or bro is supposed to take care of my food i'll get fat very easily.. dad orders a lot of food.. and bro usually takes me out for fast food..

ohh..and i've been considering blogging totally about food for some time now... maybe if i take my camera out with me all the time.. :) ..should I...? my life just seems too boring to blog about but at the same time i don't feel like killing off this blog... -.- ...

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sweet dreams...

haih.. i had a very long nap just now..again... mainly coz i couldn't stuff any econs or chem down my system so i thought a nap would be nice... i woke up and slept again on and off.. and i dreamt of something so ..erm... weird..

I was sitting for sejarah paper 2... and i didn't know how to answer a single thing.. -.- .... damn sien... makes me think... what if tomorrow or wednesday's paper... i also dunno how to answer a single thing O.O ............ must go study now >< ....

it makes me remember the time after SPM and i was having dream about getting the result slip and getting all D's ..... oh the horror.......

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graduations....

Back from popiah party.. haha... Cousin CK graduated on saturday so aunt decided to have a get together.... i must say.. my skills have improved ..hehe... the popiah i wrap no longer drips or bursts... joy... and i think it's safe to say i'll never buy outside popiah ever again... until there really is a good one... hmph...

It's November now... The end of the year is coming so fast... Yesterday was our one year being graduated from secondary school... saw ying ying and poh's blog.. and i realise.... i didn't take any pics with ying ying T.T .... haha.. but that's not really the point... i guess... remembering the old times was quite nice... how easy-going everything was... how we thought SPM was the largest hurdle ever... and now experiencing college... SPM feels like a stroll in the park... thinking about how we all practised for our graduation dance together... and during the ceremony i remembered Kai Ye's speech having some touching effect... though i can't really remembered what she said that made me feel close to tears... but i didn't cry during graduation...muahahhaa... but this could probably be caused by my not understanding everything i hear... urghh.. i better get mandarin lessons one day.. i missed out on the class trip though.. but i remember Qiqi calling me from Penang.. and a few people spoke to me too :) ... someday we must have another trip!!

We've all walked in different directions ever since... i wish i could just go back to kwang hua again... even if it's for only one day... i wanna walk up that hill.. i wanna smell that classroom smell or rather.. get the classroom smell on my clothes... i wanna put on that blue pinafore just once more... i wanna have my favourite yee mee from the noodle stall... i wanna touch that grand piano one last time no matter how dirty and out of tune it is.. i wanna play basketball, be it at the dewan perhimpunan or the courts... i wanna sit down at the pondok where we always wait for our cars.. i wanna take that walk back home with bro...and hopefully not bump into any dogs ..

But... i know it'll never be the same... some things are meant to happen only once... and now i hear my friends younger than me are going to have their SPM... and the fact that they'll be going through what i wanna relive again... i can't say i don't feel a bit jealous :) .. something i really regret is not taking more pictures of the school and my friends...

i feel stupid for ever wanting to grow up so fast.. because when it really is time for me to step up and grow up i don't think i'm doing such a good job... but i guess instead of wishing to live in the past... i should really just embrace the present so that when the future comes i have no regrets... ;) ...

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