3 weeks...

decided to skip college today.. lecturers are all doing revision and stuff but many a time i find myself sitting there..very blur.. listening and copying down notes without really getting it.. so i thought i should revise more and finish up the work that's been piling up :p .. mum's understanding enough to let me stay home :) ..

anyways.. in the morning bro and i were eating breakfast at the dining table then dad was going to work.. and he came over and said : "Let's go for lunch later.. I'm off early today. (bro and i beam at each other :D ) I'll take you all for.. *pause* ohh.. i have a lunch appointment..but i'll be back early!" -.- ..

i intend to finish app physics and do some chem today.. plus some econs and maths... hmm.. basically a bit of everything..

3 more weeks to doooooomsday...

-llen-

forever 19..

That night at my cousin's wedding dinner i went over to say hi to Mr Lee (teacher in primary school, tennis teacher, aunt's friend) before he left..

It's been a while since i last saw him so he said "all of you are grown up already " .. and i was being honest when i said he didn't look too bad himself (until today, i still dunno how old he is .. which reminds me of the time i think i grabbed his attendance book once when he wasn't looking XD.. but we never found out his age still -.- ) to which he replied "I'm still 19"

XD .. it's been 7 years and he's still 19!

thinking back, primary school was the most drama-filled part of my life... everything after that was much less complicated :/ .. but then again, maybe we were young so any out of the ordinary thing that happened seemed to be very colossal..

it's times like these when my mind drifts away and tries to pick some of my memories and replay them.. all those ups and downs.. the friends i grew very close to but lost somewhere along the way.. a few years ago i felt bad for letting it happen.. i felt bad that we couldn't be just as close..

but today, i know it's almost impossible to have it all.. you win some, you lose some.. and that's the way it has to be..

-llen-

can't have it all..

in light of my results.. i've decided..

I firmed Bristol yesterday and selected Southampton as my insurance..

It's gonna be a tough one month's toil but i'll make sure i do myself some justice and not waste a year and a half and a whole lot of money's worth of education...

i will not be a failure! let this be the worst... it can only get better after this...

-llen-

someone push me off a cliff please...

i don't deserve to jump off a cliff.. someone should push me off one for being given an education and messing it up so terribly...

gaahhhh... i knew it'd be bad but not THIS bad ...
now i have to check the mail everyday and make sure mum doesn't get it before i do...

and i really hope mum forgets all about it and doesn't check on her own.. else.. goshh....

from now till june i have to stay away from msn..facebook..blogging ... tv..outings..

finals are in a month and i don't want to see what i saw today printed on my result slip.. i really don't.. it's such a disgrace that i can't even tell my closest friends... T.T

fish.market.labuan.

-llen-

the need to deflate...

My tummy is getting to be a very annoying thing...

I remember i used to have quite a healthy tummy.. it was quite flat... and even if there was fat it wasn't very much...
I don't remember when tummy started becoming such an annoying tummy :( ..

I notice the tummy on a daily basis but i don't notice it as terribly as i noticed my tummy today..

It was my cousin CC's wedding tonight and he being a very close cousin of mine, well we were expected to look nice.. I couldn't find anything new to wear for the dinner so i decided to wear an outifit i'd worn a few years ago to someone else's wedding..

The skirt was actually bought for my cousin SW's wedding (if not mistaken.. that was 5 years ago..) and cousin SW had asked me to be her bridesmaid back then but she decided to let me wear trousers..haha.. i dunno if she knew back then i'd already got a skirt ready..hehe..

Anyways.. the point is.. when i first wore that skirt it was ok.. i could sit, eat and breathe fine.. but today... oh the torture.. i didn't really feel hungry at the dinner -.- ..

Thus... i really need to burn the tummy fat... time to do those sit ups again.. yikes.. it's gonna be tough getting back to the fitness level of my secondary school days.. yiishh.. i'm only 18 and i sound like an old lady already...pfft...

-llen-

question!

Do you behave the same way with your friends as you do with your family members?

And if you don't.. are you a hypocrite?


Mum, bro and i went to sunway together today coz bro has got nothing to wear for cousin's wedding.. bro wanted to try the stuff at that new korean shirt shop.. or is it shirt studio.. something lah .. but all the shirts looked weird on him... haha.. cutting bo ngam...
then we walked around and i saw topshop.. i NEVER get anything from there but i just casually suggested "Eh.. you go see topman mum and i go see topshop~" and turns out topman has a whole bunch of nice collar shirts that were of good quality and beautiful cutting.. and somehow bro doesn't have a mind of his own when he's picking shirts.. even when he does he still hesitates very long thinking if he should TRY the shirt *roll eyes* .. i feel he's sometimes more girl than me XD .. so i picked out some nice shirts for him and he liked it all (and to his weird fascination they have his size although it's UK brand -.-''' ..i tink he needs to get out more)..muahahaha...

with that settled we were getting kinda thirsty so we got some juice.. and i was my usual good mood self.. suppose the right description would be that..i'm quite chirpy and..weird.. so bro said..

Bro: Do you behave like this around your friends??
Me : .........erm... no?
Bro: see.. you're not being yourself when you're with them..
Me : Maybe around certain friends i do...coz if i'm always like this, then i'd have no friends at all.. D:

come to think of it..my dad once called me siao po... XD ...

but am i really the only one who behaves like this? it's not that i'm acting when i'm around my friends... it just feels like i'm more shelled up,somewhat .. i dunno..could be a normal reflex until i get to know a bunch of people better...

but really, can anyone be the same way everywhere they go?


-llen-

James McAvoy...

pic from the glitter child

he may not look really good normally but he looked wonderful in Penelope~~ the shaggy hair.. the slightly scruffy look... :)

after watching once i even scrolled to his scene to watch again XD ...

too lazy to blog long long stuff so i thought i'd share my latest addition into the list of hot celebrities XD
feel weird blogging about stuff like these -.- ... but then again... i AM weird,sadly..bear in mind: not lame, just weird XD ..

-llen-

Brunch at Old Town..

Had brunch with bro and cousin CK..


Me: What are you drinking ahh?

Bro: Xi Mut milk tea..

Me: Hee... you know, i heard somewhere that xi mut milk tea is made with socks.. you're drinking sock tea :D

Bro: Seriously meh.... my friend says he always drinks this at the original old town (ipoh)

Me: Yaa... i think Yi Min told me.. doesn't the name suggest socks? or stocking rather...

Bro: Ohh...really wor.. the first word is "stocking".. what's the second word ahh?

CK: dunno.. but the first word is definitely stocking ..

the conversation went on to weird jokes about how this tea came about and a whole bunch of other stuff XD .. but i really do want to know, was this tea originally made with stockings?? (of course i know old town didn't make it with socks/stockings -.-) coz i read somewhere it refers to the smooth silky texture of the tea...maybe only Hong Kong people know the answer :/ ..

on a side note.. when i open my own cafe/restaurant/bakery next time i'm going to make sure all items on the menu are served all day long! unlike some places with the breakfast menu just for breakfast.. :)

-llen-

freeeedom....

Trials are over and done with... phew..

Feels good to have such freeedom...

After the econs paper i met up with Huai Ping and we went to snowflake.. :) .. the best place to de-stress... maybe not the place (has nobody else felt that they need sound absorbers? coz they play music and when the place is full and everyone talks you can barely talk to/hear your friend clearly) but the stuff they serve.. *slurrp*

And right after that bro picked me up and i had to teman him for lunch... we ended up in pizza hut.. i was craving for lasagna and i thought i had the chance to eat out tonight but dad had a change of plans and he's coming home for dinner so i thought.. i'll just have it here and maybe skip dinner..

I ORDERED lasagna but what came was spaghetti.. T.T ... why oh why... and the worst thing is they already printed out the bill and on the bill is spaghetti.. so being the un-fussy person i am i just ate the damned thing.. *haih*.. it's like i'm destined not to have lasagna today... hmm..on a random note.. lasagna makes me think of Chin Li... :)

it's the worst thing when you put on calories without gaining utility/satisfaction (muahaha.. econs XD )

gonna need a plan to stay focused this holiday.. i must exercise everyday so that i lose some weight before cousin's wedding..hehehe... and i'll have to finish my revision which is gonna be such a torture -.- ..

-llen-

no air, no air...

sounds a lot like no A, no A T.T ...

tomorrow's the last day of trials... what a relief...

Dad picked me up after Phyiscs today and i can confirm.. after today's paper i won't get an A in any of my subjects this time around.. i bet it'll be similar to or worse than sem 1 results.. *sigh*

I told dad i probably won't get any A at all and he didn't seem angry... hmm... maybe this is what happens when people age... XD ...

But like they say, if you can't get an A, get a B! (i don't know if anyone has ever said this actually.. :/ )

Taking a nap now and then full force econs!! and chemistry -.- ... pfft.. how did my love for chemistry once upon a time get cultivated i really don't know...

-llen-

such a small world :D

so i went for my piano class at a new teacher's house..

This teacher was my previous teacher's teacher... and apparently is a friend of my aunt..

Not gonna hide the fact that i was expecting somebody rather old coz my previous teacher could easily be late 20s/30 or 30+ ... i think.. so anyways.. arrived at her house then she came to open the door and. hmm. she's not that old.. but that's probably how it is for most music teachers.. (like my violin teacher is only 23..and possibly due to their lower stress lives they can upkeep themselves better?)

Waited a while before starting coz there was another student..while waiting i filled up a form about my details..about where i study, address, name.. and one of it was how many years learning piano already.. and THAT is a very good question... i left that blank coz i really dunno and mum forgot.. -.- .. but it really does feel like i've been learning for ages..

So she looked at the form and asked before Taylor's where i studied:

Me: Kwang Hua
She: Ohh.. my son was in Kwang Hua too.. you're in science class? science wat?
Me: Science four..
She: Oh.. my son was in Science two..
Me: oh.. what's his name?

(*deng deng deng* any kwanghua-rians wanna guess???? )







She : Ter Wei


O.O ... quite surprised actually.. but maybe if i had time to think about it it wouldn't be that big of a surprise since how many S2-ians have a piano teacher mum?

So she listened to my pieces today and she's a rather nice lady :) .. my previous teacher is right.. she's not garang at all XD ...


-llen-