update...

Haih... with the March intake people...college is kinda packed... and the students from last year are having exams so... we're stuck in one class for the whole day...haih...
It's really fun looking at those March intake people..muahahaha... they often look like lost sheep... kinda like how we looked when we first came in :P ... but now we are the more experienced... hehehe... but yea..there's still quite a bit to take in.. one of the only things that make college more interesting is the talks and stuff... which are oppurtunities to skip class and a source of information...unlike in secondary school where it was just a boring waste of time but still an oppurtunity to skip class nonetheless ;)...

Been feeling really tired today...don't know why... maybe because of the sickness and lack of exercise and followed dad to exercise yesterday and the lack of sleep... resulting in me sleeping for a few classes today -.- ...yeesh.. and that's when the sucky part of college kicks in... like when you miss a class you become a real blur case... except for maths coz we're kinda repeating what we learnt in add maths... hmm....maybe chicken essence is in order..

Ohh.... ECA day is coming... it's not supposed to matter to me coz I'm supposed to have signed up for stuff but i might still go... since i didn't get to see some booths the first time i went... hehe...

And i just realised how many people around me passed their driving test already... and i haven't even gone for undang!!! grrrr.... but i guess it wouldn't really matter much... not like i'll get to drive straight away after getting my license...but if i continue to drag on like this i tink i might end up going end of the year -.- ... pif.. by then EVERYBODY would have had their license already...

-llen-

scrambled...

I hate it when people mess with my brains.... -.-
I've been quite settled on Law...but that was after psycho-ing myself... (was thinking about Chemical Engineering but gave up on that after knowing it's mainly to do with oil & gas... then I thought about pharmacology... NOT pharmacy..thought about food science once but felt like there weren't many options..hence thought about chemical engineering for more career options and flexibility..not just food..but realised chem engineering really really really is not my thing..thought about Economics....gave up on culinary FOR NOW ;) ... )
Then Dad waltzes in the house from his dinner... and says he'd been talking to some of his friends... and the lady that owns the restaurant ..erm.. she kinda knows that I thought of culinary before (mainly because I wanted the recipe for her dessert..and Dad talked -.- ) ... so she says if I'm serious about culinary I should go to her kitchen for 1 week... then another friend said nutrition has good career prospects in the future...bla bla bla...
And that just leaves me confused again ... if only there was a way to do it all... that'd be fun.... but in the end... some sorta compromise will have to come up... it's just which one won't make me regret SOOO much.... well... I have until September to decide...

-llen-

clouds......

Yesterday I was watching The Pink Panther on AXN... was lying on the couch upstairs during the commercials and I looked out the window and the clouds were rolling in this direction~~ ... they looked like popcorn sometimes though usually they just look soft and fluffy... wonder if it's because I'm sick but I just stared and admired the big fluffy clouds.... ahh...such a soothing effect...too bad bro had the camera... else I might've taken a picture of it....

As a kid I remember liking clouds.. looking at the shapes..watching them move... then I slowly didn't really think about clouds coz....well... it didn't seem important... but now... I won't take clouds for granted anymore.... I'll like them as much as I like the moon and stars :) ...

-llen-

Sick.... again...

Of all the times to fall sick....
I had plans for today and the weekends...
I was feeling fine yesterday... and after college we went to the coffee shop and I had bread, eggs and Neslo... went to aunt's house ...still feeling fine... went home and dozed off before dinner and when I woke up I had a fever.....
There's this audition thing going on the whole week for the society of performing arts and I thought of going just to see or try out for fun.... or maybe volunteer to help backstage.. then I had to fall sick :( ....
And we have 2 tests today!!!! I kinda like sitting for tests... coz that kinda tells me where I'm at... but I had to fall sick ... and I already missed a Chemistry test 2 weeks ago....
And I wanted to eat wantan mee tomorrow for breakfast since there's no piano class!!!! the wonderful wantan mee at glenmarie.....................................................
And bro didn't have class today and he decided to make waffles.... and I was half awake when he and mum were having the waffles and I heard them saying how nice it tasted...arghhhh.... I could only get a little pinch of the waffle and it was yummy....

My whole day was spent on the couch downstairs.. curled up in my little blankie....coz there's a very unpleasant smell upstairs coz of some work done yesterday... the whole day..drifting in and out of sleep.... good thing I'm feeling better now.... if I'm ok by tomorrow I wonder if I'll get to have some wantan mee~~~~....

-llen-

The sucky thing about college is that teachers can decide to cancel class as and when they like with no prior notice :(
Oh..and the extremely cold cold library.... which freezes you up so you can't really do homework...
And I can't borrow any books because of the library's incompetence...pif... I ain't paying a single cent I tell you!!! Coz I'm innocent!!! hmph...

Anyways...
These past few days have been pretty boring... School is more fun somehow... Less tiredness... and I'm not sure if this is true but I think I ate healthier food back then...hmmm... But I'm still happy to be underaged and out of Kwang Hua already!! They say the new principal is nuts... implementing the weirdest and harshest rules... and Kwang Hua-rians being Kwang Hua-rians never accept authority just like that ..haha... heard that there's been a lot of complaints...

And I'm not sure if this is true but we can't even go in to school anymore... or is it can't go to the office...... which is absurd!! It's kinda like saying you can use the basketball courts but you can't visit the teachers or submit forms to the school... stupidity...

Yay!! it's finally 3pm.....

-llen-

Appetite...time management...

It's 10+ pm and I just finished dinner.... This is not right at all....
In primary school we had dinner at 7... and in secondary school it was about that time as well... maybe around 8... and now we have dinner at 9? This is not doing me any good actually :/ ...

Partly also because I don't like doing work before dinner... which results in homework not being finished on time *groan* ....

So I shall make a promise to myself!! To come home and shower and do work before dinner!! And to supress my pre-dinner appetite... I think there's something wrong with me .... Why am I always so hungry after college.... and the sad part is I get hungry after college but I don't get to eat dinner just yet..which results in me indulging on all the unhealthy food I can get my hands on be it at home or around college... and at dinner time I'm forced to eat too... but the funny thing is... not too long after dinner I get hungry again... >< ... which results in me putting on lots of weight.. (not that I've weighed myself but I feel... rotund..) perhaps exercise is in order... but with the time I get home and stuff...it's just impossible sometimes... grr...
Few more weeks to holiday :) ... then I can really try to change my lifestyle....

-llen-

Results day....

Took my results yesterday ....
The trip back to school was a lot less dramatic than I thought it would be...
I didn't smell the grass...I didn't even smell the toilet -.- ...
A lot of my classmates went much earlier than me..and most of them looked happy... but I still didn't know what to expect... Went up to the Dataran Perhimpunan.... and there were so many people.... then classmates told me to quickly get my results......
Went to the table where Pn Chiew sat... her face always so black.... she saw me then start looking for my results slip..passed me the form to apply for LCCI cert and mumble mumble ...dunno what she was saying...
My eyes scanned the slip... still figuring out what I got... then this Ah Chng... eyes faster than mine.. he scanned it much quicker than I could managed and said 9 then he went off... I didn't believe him... I kept counting... looking at the 1, 2, 3... good thing it stopped at 3 XD ... And at that moment I was happy... and I felt lucky...
Then chatted with friends for a bit...then went to the coffee shop to tapau for bro...then swung by ET to get back my deposit... met Mrs. Lee in her office and she was surprisingly happy with my results... then went to Bukit Tinggi JJ to meet up with a few classmates..

I was happy ...but I didn't think it was right for me to be happy... I started questioning myself...why am i so happy? ... perhaps it was due to the lack of expectations...
When I heard of other people's results... I won't deny the tingle of jealousy I felt...
Even more so today at college...when I hear even more straight A's... Yu Li had 12A1's and 2A2's.. incredible... Medalynn had 12A1's... a few more had straight A's ... I never know if it's a blessing or a curse to be so mediocre... even my English is not as good as it used to be anymore..

But anyhows... I guess this is another lesson to be learnt.. I won't say I am depressed or unhappy lah... just sometimes you wonder what could've been... (but I know there's not much point in wondering about that lahh...) if I had put in more effort... perhaps things would be slightly different... but what's done is done... I'm still quite happy with the results... coz despite not having much hope for the results... it was better than expected :)

-llen-

12/3/09

I'll be smelling Kwang Hua's grass in a few hours!! yay~~
I wasn't nervous until now actually...when people start telling you how nervous they are then you get nervous yourself... hmph...pressure...
hope tomorrow's gonna be more fun than emotional....
we won't be the same people we were after getting the results~~~ ... in a way lah.. update more after results have been collected.... :)

-llen-

A few days ago my aunt sms-ed me.. she subscribes to The Star news and the sms I got was..

"STPM results will be out at 12 noon next Tues (March 10); 53,638 students sat for the exam last year/STAR"

Then I started to wonder why my aunt sent me that message -.- ... so i told her i took SPM and not STPM... then she told me she was to "kam cheong" (excited? anxious?) XD ... but it was ok... coz I could forward it to my cousin..

But anyways... it was in one of the newspapers... our results will be released on Thursday!! hmm.. finally we'll face the reality... no more nightmares :) .. but anyways.. we'll probably get to go have fun after the results collection... yay~~!! there're really more pros than cons to this ...

For now I'm still sick... yeesh... the infection was worse than I or we thought.... but getting better at least.... so I got a jab today... hmmph...

-llen-

Sick....

Skipped college today...
Yesterday morning woke up with a little fever... thought that it's nothing a little Panadol won't cure..and the Panadol did help... but only for a short while... I don't usually bring my jacket to college and yesterday was the only day i regretted not bringing it... so cold the whole day.... and with World Maths Day going on we didn't study but asked for permission to play... (our class is 0901PE4... we're no.10!!) It was a long day coz I had violin after that too.... got home around 7+ ... Showered..ate...panadol...sleep... woke up early to study for the test but i was still feeling crappy... and i was supposed to go for a study trip at royal selangor pewter..haih.... in the end had some barley...another panadol and slept again... the next time i woke up was when mum came back to take me to the clinic...
Apparently my tonsils are infected... there were... ermm... white spots?? ... kinda freaked me out... I thought the doctor was gonna get my tonsils cut out.... got some antibiotics and fever med... feeling much better now but still...crappy... hmm... no such thing as full attendance for me -.- ....

-llen-